Jacq's

12 Oct 2003

Boring day for me.. Juz came back for dinner.. Went to JE to have dinner as well as study with QX and meLmeL.. lOlx.. Well, I did eat till very full.. But din hab a gd dinner should I sae? Mel told me that he might be in love with xy.. I was like.. Wat the..?! I don't believe of coz.. But, from what and how he sae it, it's like, it's hard for me not to? Juz asked him a very ridiculous question.. Can't believe I would ask that.. Wonder what would his answer be.. QX tell me that the chances won't be very high.. I dunno.. I hope not.. Juz one day isnt that bad ritez..? Am I really a very bad gf..? *siGhx* I guess yes bahx.. Like my mama always sae mi, "You har.. No one can tahan your temper de lo.. Only Bryan can.. And stupid u, go and break with someone who treat you so well.." *siGhx* Guess it's true bahx.. He's the only one who can tolerate me for so long.. He's the only one who really loves mi.. But too bad, I don't love him as much.. If only I love him as much as well, I might be married in 2 years time, who knows? Haha.. What the hell am I dreaming of? lOlx.. Stupid edwin.. Keep on calling me.. Tell him straight liaox.. No means no.. Juz now call me when I eating.. I ask meL listen.. meL ask him later call.. He din call after tht.. lOlx! I guess he won't dare bahx.. The renzhong.. More jialat.. Ytd, AT NITE!! Understand, at nite lehx..! Tmd.. Dont want listen to his call.. Gimme 5 missed calls.. WTF?! Luckily I haber sleep.. Actually wanna answer his call den ask him fuck far far off de.. But think of it, somethings are betta left unsaid.. Dont want hurt his feelings so juz hang up his calls.. Later talking to Jacky.. He keep on asking me talk on fone.. Everytime I come online, he would be the first to msg me ask me talk on fone.. And I know, I wont be in the mood to talk de.. Coz I really dont feel like talking lately.. But he ask me so mani times.. And I reject so mani times ler.. Dun 1 make him think that I dislike him.. Coz he's a really nice guy.. And, he is not into me.. So, still can talk lo.. Sometimes, really very ke lian lion.. He is like a robot.. With so mani things in his brain.. I wonder how he tahan de.. Good tolerance, man! :) Hmm.. Miss talking to jedi.. Hehe.. He very cute.. Realli lo.. Haha.. Think of it I wanna luff.. Coz we were playing OZ.. Den I went to his OZ house.. He ask me to cook for him eat.. I ask him really can cook in oz mehx..? He sae, imagine!! *pEnGx* So, I told him.. Abalone and fish 'n' chips is on the table.. Including candlelight.. (When the table is actually empty.. Coz the house.. Canot play wid.. Only can decorate de..) Den he use the big big lamp to substitute the candles.. I was like chio ka peng!! Really lo.. Damn farnie.. Haha.. Cute lehx him.. Hehe.. But one big problem.. He same age as mi lehx.. Haix.. Somemore.. I so pai kua.. aWww.. Wad the hell am I thinking about? Like he will ever likes mi? Haha.. Who cares?! Not really into any guys now.. In fact, really tot of being lesbian.. Blogger, agree ma? Hehe.. If bcum lesbian hor.. Good ler.. Lidat my girlfriends will know me well and I will know them well.. Den the r/s will be much easier.. Isn't it? :) Zzz.. I'm talking craps today sia.. *siGhx* He like xiangyin.. Realli mahx..? Get the point why I don't like him go chiong? Well, he wun understand de.. *siGhx* Not fated means not fated bahx.. Juz gotta forget abt everything.. Time can heal everything.. But, for now.. I still want to remember the days we spent.. Coz, its really sweet..:) I will never ever forget them in my life.. >SWEAR< I wish.. Really really wish that he would be my stead for that 1 day on my birthday.. That, will be the biggest birthday present I ever had in my whole life..:) Well, am I dreaming or waD? *sObx*

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