22nd May 04
had a big quarrel wid d4r juz nw.. i felt tat somehow, somewhat, we could never be like the past.. i felt tat he no longer loves me.. and, e same goes to mi.. i dunno if i still love him or nt.. cos im hurt now.. realli very hurt.. tis is e 1st time he had ever done tis to mi.. feel so hurt.. y? y am i always being hurt by guys?? cos im an easy prey?? wo bu zhi dao?? i juz feel so bad.. mom noes i quarrelled wid him.. and she gave mi a lecture.. not realli lecture.. advice instead.. makes mi so guilty now.. her words juz keep on spinning in my head.. i juz couldnt get to slp.. im realli afraid.. afraid tat he might leave mi 1 day.. i felt tat i cant trust him animore.. there's so mani questions in my head now.. and so mani wad if.. im so scared now.. dunno wad to do.. i realli feel damn guilty.. i couldnt trust ani1 now.. *sighs* wad in e world hell is happening?? 1 moment, im e happiest woman in e world.. e next, the most suay.. hais.. I NID A BREAK!! *sobs* he's sleeping now.. he said tat he's tired.. y he can sleep till so peaceful when there's something absolutely wrong between us?? cos he dun care animore?? *sighs* mayb in his heart.. there's onli tat she bahs.. i guess i could nv replace jasmine no matter how hard or how long we were together.. i realli hate her.. tat biatch.. cant blame mi.. i juz couldnt get over it.. i juz felt superb jealous.. wtf?! life is damn damn fucked up now..
ytd i ownself do manicure.. not very nice but can lahs.. first time do mahs.. took abt like.. 3-4hrs?? hahas..!! i noe its pretty long.. cos i dunno how to paint my right hand mahs!! den i help my sis do oso.. nicer den mine lo.. >.< den ytd peishan stay over at my hse to study.. hahas.. din study much though.. we eat, tok cock, study abit lahs.. not bad lo.. hehes.. tml still gt tuition.. damn sianz.. den gotta wake up early.. cos my d4r meetin his fren early go JB.. >.< leave mi behind in spore.. ka0s..
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