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SIAN ARHS!! i want a VICTORIA SECRET lingerie!! those sexy sexy ones.. hahas.. ok! mai puke lar.. wear for my laogong c canot mehs? *pukes* aniwae, i did bid some of them on ebay! kekes.. want some new look lars.. so sian of my usual tees and jeans.. SICK OF IT! waiting for my torrid stuffs to arrive! *gRrr.. since dunno when lars!! *s0bx* wait till neck long long liaos! i gotta buy some belts and bags!! but im seriously broke lehs.. *sighs* i keep thinking whether i shld really continue this job.. becos this job is seriously pay-pathetic.. its DAMN pathetic.. it cant even fulfil any of my needs.. but i really love the hrs.. so, its a comparison of money vs happiness.. i guess right now, wad is more important to me is happiness? *sighs* but im not saving a single cent! how to "yang lao" u tell mi?!
read aaron's blog.. QUEK, i know u'll c his blog.. as well as mine.. wad i have to say is, u are really brave.. i can never be like u.. u face up the fact.. but i dun have the courage.. when he cheated on mi.. the only logic thing for me to do is to LEAVE him immediately.. but i din.. i stay on.. cos i have no courage to face the world alone.. no courage to LIVE alone.. but u're different.. u face it.. and allow him to make a decision.. we all know how much u love him.. but we also know how much he loves u too.. really, those factors are not very serious.. cherish it before its gone again.. by then, it will be too late.. i love u babe.. i hope friday u will be open w us.. we'll be there for u!
*sighs* love is sucha complicated matter.. or am i the one who doesnt know how to handle? its so complicated that i no longer know what's the definition of L-O-V-E.. is there really a definition for it? because whenever i thought ive come up of it, i realise im wrong.. *sighs* love is not about only 2 persons.. it concerns about the people around u too.. its not so simple.. just like me and sam.. his friends doesnt like mi.. so whenever we quarrel, they will advice him to break up w mi.. cos to them, i doesnt make a gd gf.. and whenever they go out.. they will hope tat im not there.. but if im in gd terms w them, it will be a different thing.. but im trying.. trying to be not so antisocial liaos.. *sighs* getting sick of living.. sometimes, i hope i can just DIE.. and leave this world FOREVER.. dun wake up.. just sleep for a long long time.. let me just DIE! if only i got the courage.. i wun be here..
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