2:39am
IM FUCKING BORING FOR THE WHOLE FUCKING DAY!! and today is passing so FUCKING SLOW!! KNN!! hell man! its so super boring for me today lorhs! and i work morning shift! so im FREE by 5pm! but dear's not with me!! im ALL ALONE at home! IDIOT!! aniwae, i cant FUCKING get to sleep now!! *geesh*! just went to e-Luxury.. hell.. im so in love w lotsa stuffs there! especially LV jewellery!! their pendant is much more nicer than tiffany!! but LV one of cos cost much more than tiffany la.. a stupid pendant from LV cost more than $2000+..=,= if only i have that kinda money, i would have bought myself a vespa! hahas.. dun be surprise! im planning to take bike license w yufen! but i don't know she want or not lehs.. my wish is to have a bike w hello kitty spray and furry seats! hahas.. i noe tat sounds *yucks* + *act cute*.. but i seriously like the idea.. that's y i want a vespa.. if i don't have that kinda money to spray, i'll seriously just get a sportsbike and overtake ALL the guys i met on the road! =x but IDIOT! i dun even knows how to ride a BICYCLE!! for godsake!! stop dreaming lar.. *slaps* my another wish is to have a CAR by 21! of cos i want a MAZDA 3/6, HONDA INTEGRA or HONDA ACCORD.. however, i will be contented if i only can afford TOYOTA VIOS..=) of cos, its really mission impossible lorhs..=( *sighs* im beginning to regret lers.. regret to quit my previous job.. im so freaking stupid man.. if i din quit my previous job, i can take car license and have my own car liaos.. car which i paid by myself.. but FUCK! i ruin everything.. KNN!! hais.. life is so freaking sian lars.. w this pathetic pay, i cant even satisfied my WANTS! i cant even spend money on apparel!! cant even spend on clubbing! and ive got lotsa FUCKING bills to pay.. CB!! im so dulan and unhappy w myself now lars.. maybe cos im BORING for the whole day.. and my brain kenna "sot" liaos.. hahas.. but really pek cek lorhs.. now i cant even plan for a holiday trip.. WTF! i wanna go AUSTRALIA! i still haber go HONGKONG, TAIWAN n CHINA!! wad abt my honeymoon? my honeymoon i wanna go PARIS! *slaps* i really bu zi liang li..=( ok lar.. let mi dream can anot? sometimes dream also not bad mahs..=x dear always say i always reach over my limit.. everything also want.. that's what alot of ppl say me also.. i always want the best of each and everything.. and i want EVERYTHING.. tat's y im so jialat now.. hais.. now muz curb liaos.. not EVERYTHING can go my way.. *sighs*
aniwae, i find DAWN YANG damn chio! but why the 3 guys that i ask.. the 3 guys say not chio? www.xanga.com/clapbangkiss the 3 guys are - dear, lionel, roland! they got FUCKING high standards or wad? -,- LOW! maybe is my standard LOW lar..=x but really, i find her really CHIO!! i cant forget her man! i dun mind being a lesbian if my gf is her..=x since guys are ALL BASTARDS!! yes, ALL!! stop denying and say u are the rare one.. no such things lar.. *pukes*
i wanna have "jian dao jian" (scissors rice aka curry rice) at WISMA ATRIA FOODCOURT! heard from fellow podders that there alot of nice nice food!! but hell.. im having diet lars.. canot eat..=x like real lar.. hahas.. i still eat lar.. but only at nite lorhs..=x i know i know.. shld eat breakfast.. nt dinner.. but morn i not hungry AT ALL!! den always even i eat breakfast, dinner cfm hungry.. but if i dun eat breakfast, i can always dong till dinner mahs.. so i eat dinner lorhs..=) wanna go CRUISE DINING also!! =(
the more i think about it.. the more unhappy i am.. our 2nd year anniversary.. NO CELEBRATE! WTF!! i quite dulanz lorhs.. he say get pay den celebrate.. in the end, i also get NOTHING! no prezzie nvm.. no celebration! wah lau.. *angry* i know lar.. we're both really broke.. cos alot of things to pay etc.. BUT!! y he canot save up lehs? y he nv prepare before hand? hais.. sometimes i think of the past few months im wif him.. i feel that its more of a routine rather than love? sometimes get SICK of it lorhs.. but i know i will DIE if he leaves mi.. how lehs? i still LOVE him for sure.. i know i do.. but he's not making an effort in this r/s.. maybe i ask too much.. which he always say.. i have high standards for a bf.. but its bcos u really treat mi VERY different when we first get together mahs! u used to be SUPER DUPER sweet.. ya, USED TO.. not anymore lars.. u get irritated at the slightest things.. raise ur voice at mi at the slightest things.. which i sometimes really feel like giving u one tight slap.. and u dun even make an effort to improve the relationship w my families and friends.. i did ok.. i try to chat w ur mama.. i try to talk w ur friends.. always encourage u 2 meet them.. so i got a chance to know them better.. i always bring u to attend my family outing.. but u lehs? u "alone".. dun like to interact people.. dun like to go out w ur mama all these.. hais.. wo bu zhi dao.. i dunno how long this r/s still can last.. i can only hold on to it.. until one day i don't love him anymore.. or one day, a better guy that cherish me comes along.. i will let go..
*arghs* he din make mi angry or wad.. but i just feel so moody.. hais.. im having PMS lar.. but no blood lehs? =x just join a spree.. bought a AMERICAN EAGLE GRAPHIC T'S.. and my torrid stuffs still haber arrive!! *aHhh.. FUCKING long lehs.. *sadz* i nid them! cos i bought the black capris.. wanna bring to JB de!! =( cos attend course at JB muz wear all black.. DUHS!! idiot lars.. aniwae, muz slp liaos.. *gosh* 3:06am lers!! *nitez*
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