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i think i really have to go library to borrow a book regarding on how to be a virtue wife.. hais.. i realise ive been putting alot of stress on sam.. i hope i will stop whinning so much but i juz couldnt help it..=( there's some miscommunications between me and his mum lately.. luckily, he asked.. if not, i would have felt even more unhappy.. its nothing big la.. juz that i din noe wad she meant lors.. i had the wrong idea la.. *sighs.. i felt so guilty after that.. i felt that im really so inconsiderate.. and also, i shouldnt expect so much.. becos we are broke.. luckily, sam din give up on me he has been super duper patient wif me these few days.. he had done his part.. as a good husband.. but ive not.. all ive given him is whinning and more kpkb..=( i felt so ashame.. *s0bx* today my mum and his mum finally met.. and we've more or less get things settled.. went to IMM wif his mum after that.. went to take a look at some bridal boutiques.. the price was pretty ex.. think we will go JB to have our photo shoot done.. we also went to look at some bangles and wedding bands.. cos according to tradition, they haf to get me a pair of bangles la.. we're now waiting for my mum to get the date for me.. the date for wedding ceremony.. sorry to say, but im super lao gu dong.. that's wad i juz realise.. hahas.. i super old-fashioned lehs.. even his mum saes tat.. hahas.. cos i sae my tea ceremony, i want to wear those chinese gown.. the old old days type.. red red 1.. lols.. den she sae.. *eeks.. so lu gu dong 1 u..=x den everything i want it to follow the tradition.. cos his mum is very modern.. she's ok wif such things.. and she not "pang tang" (in hokkien) meaning superstitious.. im superstitious lar.. i nid to calculate the date using our birthdates all these.. cos i scare the day no good etc.. hahas.. so stupid rites? =x sorry.. that's me.. hahas..
i thought i haf 2 very good friends.. but now i feel that its not so anymore.. when i was getting married, they were not excited abt it.. nor are they supportive.. i asked them about suggestions whether to get buffet or wedding dinner.. they ask me to decide.. ask what should i do.. they sae its my decision.. cos its my wedding.. it doesnt help at all..=) dear's friends on the other hand are so different.. they were so excited.. they asked him out for drinks den talk abt it.. tell him wad is the things that need to be done etc.. recommend him some restaurant etc.. when dear ask for their suggestions, they dun ans, "its ur wedding" they provide him with information.. i juz feel lonely lar.. den i realise they are not really my friends.. they are not ppl who will really stand by my side if im alone or what.. sorry to say this.. but this is wad u makes me feel.. i cant help but feel it this way.. bcos im excited abt it.. and when i ask u.. i thought u will be excited too and we can discuss n talk abt it.. but it turn out so wrong..
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