4:30pm
im really super duper dulanz now.. dun ask mi why.. i juz cant stand it anymore! *gRrr.. i dunno how long i can tahan..=(
im not happy.. im really not.. im starting to haf second thoughts.. shld i really get married? it seems like the whole preparation of marriage is so unhappy.. mainly bcos of the ppl around us.. so many things still not done yet.. car haber find finish.. we still short of 1 car.. photographer haber found.. etc etc etc.. is this natural? bcos my aunt says it is.. there're bound to be lotsa conflicts while preparing for wedding day.. but i canot tahan liaos! ok, i guess i really gotta starts to adapt my new life.. i can no longer be the spoilt brat at home already.. i no longer can get wadeva i want easily.. now, im married to other ppl's house.. i really gotta change.. and i finally realise how much my family dotes me.. i hope its not too late for me to love them back..=( if only im a guy.. things will not be so difficult.. hais.. i love sam.. i really do.. ppl who knows both me and him well will know how much i love him.. im willing to sacrifice everything including my pride.. im trying to hang on.. i hope this period pass over soon.. and we will be less stressful and welcome the arrival of our baby..=) the only thing that makes me calm down is the small little living thing inside my tummy..=)
im sOoo bored at home! early morning wake up, prepare breakfast for dear.. not very hard lar.. juz luncheon meat w bread.. wahahahas.. den reheat the leftovers frm ytd nite.. let him bring to work today.. better lar.. not good to always eat outside food..=) den go back slp at 10.15am.. all da way till like 2+pm? kekes.. yes, im a pig lar..=x den slack ard.. starts searching for photographer.. in the end, also ask back my uncle's 1.. hope tat photographer can bahs..=( den cook luncheon meat again for myself..=( pathetic rites? his mama nt at home.. so i bery pathetic de! cos i dunno how to cook! wahahahas.. den now online lors.. zou bo lan.. super sians! *arghs.. but also lazy to go out! wahahahas.. PLUS~ no money to go out! im sOoo super broke! *cries! juz send out all the invitation cards.. thanks to his mum! =) im sOoo excited.. 8 days to my big day! kekes.. but also, i dunno y.. these few days kinda emo also.. *sighs.. maybe cos i too eng lar.. wahahahas!
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