11:56am
*yawnz.. im still feeling tired despite slping e whole day ytd..-,- was over at my mum's place.. i slept e whole afternoon.. den come back hm, slept at 1am.. till 9am or so.. and i still wanna slp.. lols.. im sucha piggy..-,-
meeting huiwen later! *gosh.. so long nv c her liaos.. abit worried tat we might end up w nothing to talk abt.. we used to be so good friends.. chatting on da fone EVERYDAY when we were in primary sch.. but when we go up to secondary sch.. (we were in e same sec sch) we somehow drifted apart..! =( so i wonder if we could chat up like last time or not.. hope so bahs! she's also a proud mama of angel!
been feeling pretty emotional these few days.. always had e thought of bringing jabez up by my own.. its got NOTHING to do wif dear for sure.. he's been treating mi really good.. and i do love him alot still.. our feelings are still going very strong.. so dun attempt to break us up! hahas..=x its juz some other factors.. which makes mi so irritated.. but it would be so unfair to dear.. i have to spare him some thoughts rite? i shldnt disappoint him.. i shldnt let him down.. i shld consider his feelings.. i muz grow up.. canot be the selfish jacqueline anymore..=( being someone's wife is hard ok! hahas.. im noble! LOL! kidding lar..=x im far cry frm being noble.. its my hubby tat's noble.. he makes mi feel so proud of him! =) my gugu's husband's brother.. whose wife visits e same gynae as me.. we saw him at e clinic last wed mahs.. den he commented tat dear hen teng wo! dotes mi alot.. he's like so protective over mi.. will accompany mi wherever i go.. so scared i alone lidat.. hahas.. i felt so proud of him kk..=x but den again.. im so scared tat these moments doesnt last.. things wld be so different when jabez's out.. both of us gotta work full time and study part-time.. how are we gonna cope? i dunno.. i suggested us being wkend parents.. but he doesnt approve of it.. i noe im being selfish.. but i juz want us to concentrate our studies and work.. so tat we can better provide jabez nxt time.. wif jabez in e same house as us.. we might get distracted.. den we got irritated wif one another.. den we quarrel everyday.. tat's wad gonna happen..=( although he kept assuring mi.. but i cant help to feel so.. i dunno.. so "wu nai" lidat.. hais.. issit pregnancy caused mi to think so much? i hope so.. felt so stupid these few months.. keep thinking of unnecessary stuffs.. worrying this.. worrying that.. dunno for wad also.. i should be like the last time ME! "shun qi zi ran" mahs.. and my life will be better..! =) my biggest wish now is for jabez to be healthy and to smile alot.. i love kids who smile easily.. like bb jerald! hahas..=x
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