1:40am
im very pissed! super! had a quarrel with HER.. i hope she understands.. many times i talk to her first e reason behind is i really hope history DO NOT repeats.. i truly, really TREASURE and CHERISH you! nvm if u cant feel or sense it.. nvm if u think im faking it.. doesnt matter, really.. i had enuff!! she's taking me for granted.. im not ACTING like a saint.. bcos i can nv be one.. i know i sucks.. my attitude sucks too.. but i know im better den YOU! maybe like wad hubby say, maybe she has form a hatred towards me.. wadeva e case is.. i will not give a damn abt it anymore! when i was being ridicule.. WHAT THE FUCK DID U DO?! u do NOTHING! even boi tried to do smth abt it.. but u was busy w ur thoughts.. acting so nonchalent abt it.. its like a knife pierce thru my heart OK! bcos someone so close to me (at least that's wad i thought) could not be bothered when i was being ridicule! she din even help to defend me or get back to e other person! why e hell do u agree to go out w us if u only left 1hr for us? why e fuck only tell us abt it only when we board e taxi? yes, u put our aeroplane.. bcos of ur friends.. u think ur frens are better den us right.. u think that ur frens loves u than us right.. let me tell u, YOU ARE WRONG.. very wrong.. but nvm.. bcos these can NEVER get into ur fucking head! that's it.. i try my best alr.. everytime i quarrel w u.. it was YOU who started it.. but its ME who make e matters worst.. so i take e first step to talk to u.. i tried my best.. if u dun appreciate.. den FORGET IT!
*arghs* it feels so.. i dunno wad to say.. if history repeats, den it shall be..
this is e third time i experience this kinda incident.. when i had bad experience w a stranger e person whom i thought was close to me did nothing to it.. e first time was when i was still p6.. haha.. had a fight w some ahlians.. this freaking so-called best fren we knew each other since BIRTH! catherine push me to death.. ALONE.. i remember till today.. e second time was at MOS w e 2 queks and zy.. now its HER.. i thought friends would only treat me like this.. friends would only 袖手旁观.. but i was wrong.. i do not trust anybody nor do i feel like helping anyone anymore.. then there's tis sister of mine.. i really wanted to treat her as a very gd fren of mine at times.. but everytime when i just wanted to made up my mind tat she's worth being a fren, she betray mi again.. she backstab mi.. w her another fren.. talk behind mi.. i dun understand her intentions.. one moment, she can be really nice.. she can pia cab all da way frm jurong to sengkang just to find mi.. another moment, she backstab and gossip behind me w her fren.. i thought im ur best fren! why did u do that? please.. dun tell mi no u didnt.. i know u did.. bcos i saw it w my own eyes! sometimes i got really touched w ur gestures, ur actions.. but sometimes u really turn mi off by lying thru ur teeth etc.. WHAT'S WRONG! tell me! wtf do i haf all these kinda friends ard mi? maybe bcos im a blardy FUCKER myself ehs? maybe...... so i shall continue to become a fucker.. bcos ppl ard me are no better!
anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007! a brand new year.. a brand new start! a brand new jac! my new year resolution for 2007..
- jabez & dear to be healthy and happy!
- our income wld be more stable..
- marriage would continue to be so blissful and happy..=)
- overseas trip! not thailand AGAIN! =x
- slim down! 10kg and im contented! hohoho.. (well, it has been my resolution every year ever since i know e word "resolution" LOL!)
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