Jacq's

4th July 2003

This morning.. Mel call me.. And tell me how he is getting on with blush aka mi nu er.. I think they will get together bah.. My feelings for him has decrease gradually.. I think I don't really love him anyway.. It's juz bcoz I'm not used to it that's why I'm feeling so terrible? I dunno.. My feelings for Mel is on and off that sort of thingy.. The relationship between my bf and me is getting better.. And.. I really love him alot.. Canot hear his voice can die de lo.. He today go sparks.. I very worried lo.. I don't like him to go sparks.. He go sparks.. I confirm will sian ji pua.. I very scare he go there will know new girls.. Den whenever he go chiong.. I hab to wait very long for him to get back home den can tok to him lo.. Very sianx de.. Den make mi miz him so much..:( Now talking to him.. Make me feel so happy.. Even if we are quiet.. I don't mind.. As long as he is on line with me, it's the same.. Today damn shag lo.. Everyday is lidat.. I very scare 1 day.. I will collapse lo.. I have been sleeping pretty late at nite and wake up very early the next day.. My eyes are closed as I was walking.. But what to do? I no hab tok to him.. I will feel weird.. *siGhx* What is going on with me? Sounds so despo~ Lolx.. Tml got O lvl Chinese Listening Compre.. Very scare sia.. I don't know why also..:( Today dunno need to wait for him till wad time again ler lo.. *siGhx*

- waiting for him.. love mi aiai.. -