Jacq's

15th Sept 2003

Within a few days, so many things happen.. *siGhx* We had been quarrelling for the past few days.. Almost 1 wk liaox.. He promised to fetch me from school tml.. But he could not get off.. Seems like we no nid to meet ler.. I dunno.. I very luan.. I am sure he is not the right guy for me.. But y? Y izzit that I juz cant bear to let him go..? There is so mani things I wish to tell him but he wouldn't listen.. I wish I could just close my eyes and ignore about everything that revolves around me.. I am really tired.. I myself isnt feeling very good liaox.. Den he still wan lidat.. I dunno la.. *siGhx* I jio Ronald patch ytd.. He din agree of coz.. I jio him patch bcoz lion make mi till damn angry and I realli lost hope in tis r/s liaox.. I really try very hard to please him liaox.. When I unhappi, I try to keep quiet.. I keep quiet oso let him scold.. I dunno la.. What had I done wrong tis time? I dunno lo.. Y everytime muz lidat de..? Mayb he was waiting for mi to mention break? That's y he is doing so mani things? I dunno.. I very very luan.. I dunno wad to do lo.. To break or nt to break? I guess tis is no longer impt? Coz I cant do ani choice? *siGhx* I realli lub him.. I don't want to lose him.. Not at this moment at the very least.. I really really very qian jiu him ler.. I dunno y he still lidat.. Issit bcoz I qian jiu him too much? I dunno.. I cant bear him to b angry wid mi.. Really cant lo..

- tis r/s really sux.. -