Jacq's

21th Oct 2003

ytd.. elmo ask mi straight liaox.. he sae wanna jio mi.. i ask him why.. coz he sae he like lo.. in the end.. he finally sae the truth.. coz he saw mi b4 ler.. den he gt no gf i gt no bf.. so he jio.. i was like.. wtf?! he haber wake up.. if he wake up.. i tink i gonna tell him im nt gonna accept him.. haix.. nt interested in ani guys nw.. mayb gers bahx..? hehe.. ytd found the biggest lie.. issit biggest? hmm.. i dunno.. at least to mi bahx.. juz realise that.. he had never ever quit smoking b4.. he had been lying to mi all along.. i trust him so much.. and yet, disappointment is wad i get.. all along.. he hab been smoking.. *siGhx* realli disappointed.. y tell mi tht u hab stop smoking when u haber? its nt as if i force u nt to.. c, he had nv kept to the promise he once gave.. *siGhx* wadeva bahx.. i tink i hab alreadi gt over it ler bahx.. he smoke or not smoke.. his prob.. i oso dun care ler.. mayb i dun realli lub him tht much bahx.. onli bcoz i DUN WAN to let him go.. tht's y im making myself so miserable.. no doubt he realli bring mi alot of happiness.. he realli gimme the feeling which no 1 can gib.. but.. do i realli love him tht much to make miself suffer so much? i dunno.. well.. he is no longer the prob i had in mi mind ler.. the biggest prob i hab nw is.. hw am i gonna study? *siGhx* i dunno how wor.. >.<~ think back, i realli tink i very stupid bcoz of a guy make miself till so sia suay.. im nt gonna do tht.. and 1 thing for sure.. im nt gonna get into ani r/s for nw.. even if im gng to get into a r/s.. i will never ever put my whole heart into it.. guys are wad sia? a piece of SHIT onli lo~ puiZ~ juz nw take a wedding photoshot wid jedi.. hehe.. oz de la of coz.. cutey sia.. wanted to paste in here.. but dunno hw to paste wor.. hehe.. hmm.. todae whole day nua at home.. add a few frens in friendster and tok to vanessa.. got stream todae.. but damn sianx.. seriously, i realli wish to quit nr.. its liek i realli very bo liao in there.. nt interested to stream animore.. :( siansation ar.. fucking mother come cor mi.. ask mi go down.. CCB~ i realli damn dulan lo.. she juz cor mi nia.. puiz.. tell her dunno hw mani fucking times tht I CANOT GO DOWN!! I WAN TO STUDY!! as if im toking foreign language.. Zzz..~ realli spoiler sia.. kns.. hu cares.. if she cant cope, tht's her fucking prob.. she realli jitao NO BRAINS lo..~ piAnGx~ i noe im being famn fucking rude here.. but i dun care.. coz she is the one hu dun understand mi in the first place.. i can fail de lo.. by all means.. i can help her de lo.. ask mi 2 quit study and i will go over everyday.. ask her dun let mi study liaox.. she dun 1.. den wan mi go down everyday help her.. wTF?! realli NO BRAINS la!!!!!!! damn pek cek.. bo mood liaox la..

- pcb.. stop bothering mi!!! -