Jacq's

19th Oct 2003

my msn nick just nw is " i realli miss you alotx.. when will u ever come baq to mi..? :( " den he come msg mi.. y u sounds so sad wor..? i was like so stun u noe? *siGhx* den we tok abt alotx of things.. he ask mi hu i miss.. i tell him.. hu else?

10/19/03 7:26:41 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - y so sad sia ?
10/19/03 7:26:49 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion ......
10/19/03 7:26:54 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion nth
10/19/03 7:27:29 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - haizz .. u know something .. what is the most scary thing in the world ?
10/19/03 7:27:34 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion wad?
10/19/03 7:27:39 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - it is LOVE
10/19/03 7:27:47 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion .....
10/19/03 7:27:49 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion u ok or nt..?
10/19/03 7:27:55 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion u hmm.. shi lian ar?
10/19/03 7:28:09 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - one moment love can be so nice and very happy but suddenly at the other moment .. it can turn into something really ugly
10/19/03 7:28:13 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - no lar .. i not shi lian lar
10/19/03 7:28:26 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion den?
10/19/03 7:28:27 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion wad happen?
10/19/03 7:28:39 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion wad ugly?
10/19/03 7:29:59 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - nothing happened lar .. u miss who alot sia ?
10/19/03 7:30:53 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion hu else
10/19/03 7:30:54 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion ?
10/19/03 7:31:44 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion btw.. hmm.. heard abt u n ecko.. dun feel so bad bahx..
10/19/03 7:32:12 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - what me n ecko ?
10/19/03 7:32:26 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - u mean that i tok to ecko telling her that i still cannot forget her ?
10/19/03 7:32:36 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion ya
10/19/03 7:32:42 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - omg .. u girls hor .. cannot forget her does not mean i still have feelings for her
10/19/03 7:32:51 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion .....
10/19/03 7:32:57 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion isnt tht wad u mean?
10/19/03 7:33:15 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - btw .. maybe u will think that i no girl cannot .. but u are wrong .. my work and my friends now are more important then anythin
10/19/03 7:33:22 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion .....
10/19/03 7:33:25 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion im nt trying to sae tht..
10/19/03 7:33:31 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion i noe u gt no gf.. oso can live on well..
10/19/03 7:33:34 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - i have no more feelings for her .. just that once in awhile will think of her thats all becoz we were once stead
10/19/03 7:33:54 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion but mi.. differ as u..
10/19/03 7:33:57 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion nvm..
10/19/03 7:34:48 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - u will nv understand what is called true love. hope u dun mind me saying.. u are only 16 and once u reach till my age or older .. u will understand what is true love
10/19/03 7:35:22 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - maybe u will think i have no right to say all this but what i can tell u is that when time is ripe .. u will understand y i say all this
10/19/03 7:35:39 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - i mean now u tell me lar .. u think that i still like ecko right ?
10/19/03 7:35:49 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion ya
10/19/03 7:36:17 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - u see lar .. what a stupid thinking .. everyone knows that i have no more feelings for her .. just that once in awhile will remember about her and just still wanna be friends
10/19/03 7:36:20 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion does it matter whether i noe wad is true love?
10/19/03 7:36:37 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion its like.. she tell mi tht.. u regretted letting her go..
10/19/03 7:36:58 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - of course at that time i really regretted letting her go
10/19/03 7:37:01 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion at tht time?
10/19/03 7:37:07 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion its onli recently tht u sae tht..
10/19/03 7:37:19 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - u will nv understand lar
10/19/03 7:37:27 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - what i trying to mean n u think is totally different
10/19/03 7:37:47 PM Raion - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - think whatever u want .. thats whats always get on my nerves
10/19/03 7:37:50 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion .....
10/19/03 7:38:13 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion i may nt noe wad is true love..
10/19/03 7:38:21 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion but.. all i can sae is.. i canot live well w/o u lo..
10/19/03 7:38:28 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion u wan to think im faking..
10/19/03 7:38:37 PM - i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? :( - Raion u wan to tink bcoz i dunno wad is true love. den i nth to sae..
Raion says:
u wan to be together with me .. but look at u .. u are not even strong enuff to stand when i m not there and even when i am not with u .. i still cannot stand your stubborness .. maybe u will say u also cannot stand mine .. but i m like that lor
Raion says:
i have no more feelings for ecko and thats it
Raion says:
then make any assumes
Raion says:
i mean dun go n think other ways
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
ok
Raion says:
u say i have changed ... yes .. i know i have changed to be more quiet and i dun like to share my problems.
Raion says:
but one thing for sure .. i m not like mel
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
ok
Raion says:
get that clear
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
relac la..
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
y so angry..
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
i juz felt tht.. u r like so cold nwadays.. dunno wad happen to u..
Raion says:
i m not angry .. just that i dun wan ppl to think that i am a bastard person who go ard flirting with girls and all the other stuff
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
.......
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
ok..
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
sorrie..
Raion says:
no need to sorry
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
....
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
i dunno.. its like.. sudden change?
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
the day b4 u tell mi to gib u some time.. i was realli happi.. den after tht.. u totally ignore mi..
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
i mean.. y? i gt do anithing wrong ma?
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
even if u dun like mi.. u dun wanna gib mi a chance animore.. at least i wish i could still b ur fren.. i still wish i could share ur prob or anithing.. u wun even gimme tis chance..
Raion says:
i did not ignore u .. i was just too busy lately
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
ok
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
tell mi.. wad is holding u back..? coz u dun lub mi ler or wad?
Raion says:
dun ask me this question and i will nv ans
Raion says:
i will nv ans because i dunno the ans myself
Raion says:
ok
Raion says:
but i just dun wan to be in a relationship now
- i miss u alotx.. when will u be baq by mi side..? - says:
ok

well, we talk alotx.. after talking, i feel much much betta.. i dunno y oso.. mayb bcoz i finally noe tht he dun like ecko ler..? lOlx..~ most happiest things..:) juz nw.. i ask him nxt fri can pei mi go ecp after go sparks ma.. he sae can wor.. awww.. so happi sia..:) i realli miss him.. i wish i could hug him and never let go.. he sae i dunno wad's true love.. every1 sae i dunno wad's true love.. realli shi zhe yang ma? y izzit tht every1 sae i dunno wad's true love? if realli mi lub for him is nt true love, den die ler.. coz, i realli am feeling very miserable nw.. and, i will nv ever gt into a serious r/s animore.. coz.. nt true alreadi lidat liaox.. imagine if true love how hurtful would tht be sia.. >.<~ he todae come tok to mi.. onli make mi confirm my decision that im gonna wait for him.. for how long i dunno.. all i noe is.. i will wait till mi heart tells mi nt to bahx.. *siGhx* it hurts.. *siGhx* it realli hurts arrrrrrrr..!!!!!!

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