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i thought i was preggie AGAIN! cos i felt nausea this afternoon.. hahas.. but i just remember my auntie just went back home ytd.. LOL! *scary! hehes.. seriously, i dun wanna go thru all over again.. i MIGHT have a 2nd child upon jay's request.. not even dear.. hahas.. ya.. even if dear request, i also wun want lors.. but if jay want another meimei or didi, might consider lors.. dun wan him to feel lonely.. my pregnancy is not really that scary.. i think im consider VERY VERY LUCKY! for e whole of 9 or 10 months, my life still goes on as per normal.. my tummy become obvious only on the 8th mth.. and i dun feel fatigue or wadsoever.. nausea yes.. but my body is still strong.. i was very ill on e 3rd month though.. labour was ok i guess.. it was very very painful at first.. but since i had epi at e end of it.. it wasnt as bad as those who did not have epi.. jay's considered a very easy child already.. he dun cry for no reason.. when he cries, we noe wad he wants.. very orderly.. hahas.. so he's quite easy.. i did not had engorgement.. i fear this the most! heard so many HORROR stories frm others! *yucks! LOL! luckily, i did not had to go thru it.. look, im lucky for this pregnancy! i dunno if im THAT lucky for my 2nd! wad if i am very weak during my preggie period? wad if i GAIN alot of weight? i DID NOT gain weight at all! my waistline gt increase though.. wad if my labour was not as fast as my first? cos mine consider quite fast alr! only like 5hrs or so! wad if i got engorgement tis time rd? sOo many what ifs.. very scared.. hahas.. but if i had the 2nd pregnancy, i will surely want to breastfeed again.. will be very determined to do it! =x btw, when i had jay tat time, my mood's better den now.. *serious.. i smile ALOT during tat time.. nt anymore lar.. dunno wad's wrong w mi also.. and, alot commented tat my skin's more radiant.. not due to my "bao yang" its e hormones of coz.. ya, bcoz im preggie.. i cant say that if i have e 2nd pregnancy.. especially if the next is a girl.. i heard that if got girl, complexion would be quite bad.. and will gain alot of weight.. my aunt say i look very "clean" when i was preggie.. when she preggie (she got 2 daughters), she look very "dirty" de.. hahas.. i think im blessed w jay lar.. hehes.. so for mi right now, pregnant is impossible for mi! i really peifu those mummies who's trying to TTC (Trying-To-Conceive) now when they just give birth nt long! e labour still haunts mi..=x ppl like adelynn, krissy and shan.. *salute! kekes.. so passerby, im not at all brave! as compared to other young mummies, im just a scaredy cat! >.<
talk to hubby alr.. but still nt happy wid him lar.. i shld let him have a taste of his own medicine! ASS! why are guys all sOoo insensitive? shucks!
i want to watch Rob-b-hood! i want to go Vivocity! but no one look after jay these few days..>.< haze so bad nw.. dun wanna bring him out.. so i shall be a guai mummy too.. hahas..
dear has found a new job.. frm ytd onwards, not wrking till this coming thurs! a long break for him! *grins.. he landed a job in Best Denki@Vivocity! *yay! so i can go Vivocity to shop as well as find him nxt time liaos..=x but his pay is kansilang PATHETIC! $710 nia! he wanna try cos alot of ppl say e commission there very good.. i hope its true.. if nt, we all eat shit.. hahas.. he has his long break at the WRONG timing lar.. cos e haze is so bad, we cant bring jay out.. which means he either go out himself.. or stay at home.. terrible..>.< and my bdae's coming.. *s0bx* tis year bdae he canot celebrate w mi liaos lors.. *sighs..
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