Jacq's

22nd Sept 2003

Gone.. Story between F|aMe & Raion ends here. i guess it's better this way bahx.. Like what Lionel says, he needs a break. Me too.. But this break is too painful for me. He said that his feelings for me had fade. However, mine has not. My love for him remains as strong as ever. I should have thought of it. I should hav been more decisive. Since the start of relationship, I am already aware of his feelings towards me. I should have end this relationship earlier so that the pain would be better. It really hurts. It is like a knife cutting on my heart. I realli love him alot. I really do.. What am I gonna do? I can't stop thinking about him and can't stop crying. If he still loves me, not so jialat.. The prob is, his feelings for me has fade ler.. I think I'm not gonna plunge into any r/s so soon bahx.. We started on the nite b4 my Chi O'lvl Papar 1 and end at the nite before my Chi Prelim Paper 1,, Why I so heng ar..? I very tired but just cant get to sleep. Once he tells me that he had no more feelings for me, I call another lionel up.. I was really desperate to talk to someone just now and he was the one who is by my side. He tried to jio me but I guess he is just trying to make me feel right. What is wrong with me? What am I so shi bai? God, would you gimme and Raion another chance to get back? The though of commit suicide did come across my mind. But seriously, that is stupid. I am more stable now. At least, stop crying ler. He sae he would call me later to have a good talk. As if that would helps? Nah.. Well, it's ok, I need to move on. Have a new lifestyle. It's over between Jacqueline & Raion..:) He will always in my heart.. Like what he saes, if we are fated, we would get back together one day..

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