Jacq's

6th Oct 2003

He din cor mi ytd.. Waited for his cor.. And he din cor.. Well, duhz.. Fine.. It's nt as if its a must.. Juz tht tot he would cor.. *siGhx* Todae.. Immediately after I gt home, I come online.. Whois him and saw that his username.. Was Raion.. *sObx* He actualli changed it.. What does it mean? There are onli 2 possibilities.. One, he is trying to get a girl now.. So, he hab to change so that the girl would not get any wrong idea.. Second, he no longer loves mi.. Both are not good possibilities.. >.<~ Today, get back 3 papers - Science(Physics) Paper 2 and 3, Science(Chem) Paper 1, Social Studies and POA.. I flunk my physics for sure.. Chemistry still nt sure.. S.S and POA pass.. But pass oso nt wid flying colors.. *siGhx* I am realli very very sadz when I gt back my physics paper.. During recess, I tried to cor him.. Coz, I'm realli down.. I thought if he would spent a little time toking to mi, I would be better.. *siGhx* He was sleeping..:( In order not to disturb him further, I hang up lo.. And call meL instead.. Mel was there for mi.. He was there whenever I'm sad lo.. I alreadi very bad mood abt my studies, den I very tired, come home see these sort of things.. I nearly breakdown lo.. But, I cant lo.. I jitao no mood.. Dun feel like toking to any1.. I even shun meL.. meL, realli sorry.. Coz, I really not in the mood to talk, not in the mood to joke ard.. Suddenly, wish so much for silent..:( *sObx* Realli sadded.. What did I do wrong..? Am I really not that good enough..? Am I really so ugly till he don't want to patch..? *siGhx* I hope I knew the ans.. I very very fan.. Very very luan.. Realli wish to cry very very loud now.. I cant.. Coz I know if I start crying, I will never stop.. If I never stop, my eyes will be like goldfish.. hehe..:) I dunno what can I do now except feel the pain inside mi.. I lub him.. I realli do.. I would give up anything juz to be back wid him.. Even for 1 day.. Even give up nR.. aRgHx~! Why ar..?????? *sObx* Miz him alotx sia..

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