Jacq's

1st Dec 2003

So fast, december lerx.. Last yr, I was still thinking how to du guo tis yr.. Coz got O'Level ma.. Den the days cfm pass very slowly de..=X But har, din expect tis yr happen so many things worx.. *siGhx* For 2 days, I nv tok 2 lion lerx.. Feeling abit strange.. Especially tonite.. I jitao cant slp well.. >.<~ Ive been trying damn hard to get to sleep.. But har, when I sleep tat time, I dreamt tat a girl nickname nIcE`gEr hu is inside #48.4fm de is his gf worx.. And they hab been together for like months.. Zzz.. Den tis ger har, I met her bcoz I went for a job interview.. Den she wrote tat she loves lionel.. So I ask her which lionel she toking abt.. Den she sae 48.4fm's owner.. Owner liaox nvm.. She sae she and lionel from nursery noe each other till now lerx.. >.<~ OMG~ I crazi sia.. Think too much lerx.. He's the guy whom I dreamt of most often.. TMD~! Mi har, rarely dreamt of ppl whom I know de.. I usually dreamt ppl whom I hab nv met b4.. But I dunno y, always dreamt of him.. Zzz..:( He nv cor mi lately.. I wonder y.. Mayb he's angry wid mi or he felt tat he shld lost contact wid mi like wad I used to think I should? I dunno.. *siGhx* I thought of calling him a few times.. But always dun dare.. What if he's slping? Den I disturb him.. What if I call him and he nv pick up the fone and worst still, kup mi fone.. I would tink more lohx.. So I rather not call him.. At least nt so xing ku.. Later hab to go wrk.. I very scare I will faint sia.. I really very very tired.. But I really really cant gt to slp.. How sia..? *sObx* I shld wake up at 5.30am de.. Now alreadi wad time liaox.. Even if I can get back to slp, I only slp for 1hr 30mins nia.. >.<~ My mind har, now so stuff wid lots of things.. Im juz nt used to nt going to sch.. *siGhx* Im juz nt used to not having a bk in my hand..=X Serious!! Very long no read bks abit guai guai de sia.. Like I very bad girl nv study~ >.<~ I felt so pressurised nw.. Haix.. Wei she mo worx? I dunno why.. I juz felt tat life is so meaningless and I really cant get used to the life im having now.. *siGhx* Juz now I told meL I gonna wrk in a factory.. He sae har, u cfm kpkb 1.. You tis kind of ppl canot wrk 1.. Zzz.. But bo bian!! I hab to wrk!! No wrk = no $$.. No $$ = no chiong.. Wah piangx~ Im so sickening of life~ aRgHx~ Me har go wrk har, only bcoz I wanna pay back ting tat $70, buy lion's prezzie, dye mi hair and buy clothes nia.. I planning lerx.. Wrk for 2wks, gt mi pay, zhao lang liaox.. lOlx~ I couldnt bother much~! I dun wanna wrk in the stupid factory!! Cfm very xingku de!! Den the wrking hours so damn long.. TMD~! Todae pei ting go JP.. She very fucked up sia.. She wanted to eat KFC de.. Den I sae wan to eat anot? She like abit paiseh paiseh.. Den sae shui bian.. Den I sae if u dun 1 go eat, we go Coffee Bean sit.. I wan drink the ICE BLENDED.. Den she sae ok nor.. In the end, she nv buy anithing.. Den i blardy hell spent $8+ at Coffee Bean.. Fook her sia.. Make mi damn dulan~ TMD~ Now muz start saving $$ den got enuff $$ buy his prezzie.. Den har, a wk later, nid to buy trinity's prezzie~ Zzz.. Haiyo.. Y tis month so mani ppl bdae de sia.. Now har, NR in a mess.. Pek cek.. Dun care la.. I dun wanna care so much animore lerx.. Now abit buey dong lerx.. I try get to slp and c how bahx.. >.<~

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