Jacq's

8th Dec 2003

On friday, he bought me a Perlini's Silver bracelet.. I realli like it very much.. mi nv bought him anithing realli feel awkward sia.. later gotta wrk at mama's stall.. den daily gt abt $35 ma.. so abt on wed, i can save till $135 lerx.. lidat hor, i can buy miself some clothes n shoes 2 go visit him in camp tis thur n buy him e black shirt tat he like lerx.. coz he keep on wanting 2 buy e shirt.. n i noe har, he no $$ lerx.. but he lub tat shirt alotx so he die die oso wanna buy.. haha.. so mi gonna buy him tat.. den thur can go his camp visit him wor.. dunno go his camp watch wad movie ar.. haha.. but aniwae ar, i gonna doll miself up on tat dae so as nt 2 make him malu.. kekex.. very happi nw worx.. dunno y.. juz feel so loved..=X den nxt wk or mayb on sat, go his hse cook 4 him eat! hahax.. gotta prepare medicine 4 him lerx.. later he stomache coz of food poisoning.. hahax.. fri har, after mi wrk, i straightaway go down his hse meet him.. i lidat go down har.. den go back tat time midnite charge ler ma.. den mi pay ish $33 ma.. cab fare ish ard $22.. so hor, i lidat go down har.. gt wrk like no wrk.. 1 trip nia gonez.. >.<~ but ok la.. xin tong ish xin tong.. at least zhi de.. hehex.. todae arx, we were watching tv together ma.. den i tink we were watching "Zhen Qing" or wad ar.. den gt those dim sum de.. those ppl push the cart ard de.. den i ask him arx, where in s'pore gt worx.. i realli wanna go there eat.. den har, he sae he gt go wid his ex b4.. den he quickly cor his ex ask him where izzit.. den he sae wanna bring mi go eat.. aWww.. he is like so sweet~ things tat he did arent realli tat major lo.. but can realli feel tat he loves mi alotx.. he might nt realli bring mi go eat on sat.. but i noe, he realli cares for mi.. if he gt $$ on tat day, he cfm will bring mi go de.. provided he no $$.. he har, unlike mi other ex.. mi other ex.. i "lu" they wun sae anithing de.. but har, if i "lu" den he noe.. he cfm unhappi.. den ask mi dun wear tat kind of clothes lerx.. he oso dun like mi tok 2 other guys.. i noe.. but har, i cant change lo.. >.< he nv stop mi frm toking to guys oso lo.. but i noe he dun like.. he rather he himself hungry den spend my $$.. always tink of mi b4 him de..:( *sObx* so har, mi promise miself muz treat him gd gd.. whu treat mi gd.. whu treat mi bad.. i noe de.. last time, realli stupid.. nw i clever lerx.. nt gonna b tat old jac animore.. tat time i was blind.. so well.. forget it.. aniwae, sat went to mohd sultan.. damn sucky.. realli hate tat fucking place.. i tink of it kan dulan.. first.. the place is damn fucking packed.. go club.iii pack.. go rush.. oso pack.. cb.. nt even a place to sit.. wtf.. den har, mi n nin xin (mi godsis) go 7-11 take a drink.. coz nin xin dun drink alcoholic de.. den har, she teach mi hw to fold hearts using straw.. i use the straw hab a very hard time fold 3 hearts.. tot of giving sam.. den har, i gib sam.. he fucking tell mi he dun 1.. cb.. den of coz i dulan de ma.. i keep on persevere coz i realli fold them until very pek cek.. i very stupid at crafts de.. den i tell miself.. muz at least fold 3 for him.. den when he tell mi he dun 1 tat time.. i nearly cried sia.. den i hold on to mi tears.. nin xin saw liaox, she noe.. den scold sam.. sam sae he din heard wad i sae.. he tot i ask him to hold onto the hearts nia.. wtf.. i very angry nor.. imagine the incident happen on sat.. den har, till todae i still very angry worx.. >.<~ tis shows hw hurt i felt.. den when we walk back to club.iii tat time, mi juz throw those fucking hearts away.. when reach club.iii.. he was angry wid mi.. sae i gib him wad attitude.. knn.. carina they all reach tat time, they ask mi go rush.. den i go nor.. i tell him i go rush.. den he juz blardy hell walk away.. tmd.. so i dun care nor.. juz go in rush.. after a few min, juz feel doesnt right pang seh him there.. so i went back to find him.. stay there tilla rd 1am.. go home lerx.. tat place juz sux!! i simply hate tat place!! no place to dance, no place to sit.. no nothing.. the songs oso sux.. tmd.. i will nv ever go sultan ever again!! but har, i realli miz xklusiv.. >.< haix.. sianx.. realli sianx.. y muz i wrk?! can dun wrk ma?! :( canot!! i muz wrk!! so tat i can buy clothes.. buy things for dear~ hEhEx.. den when we go out.. i can pay.. always he pay.. i very xin tong.. coz har, i noe he very broke lerx.. he ns men nia can earn hw much sia.. den every time we go out.. always he pay.. he ownself muz restrict his expenses.. he is like supporting another person.. after we 2gether, he like qian bu gou yong.. den nw if i gt wrk, we go out tat time, mi can help to pay.. and har, mi oso can go buy food den i cook for him.. hehex.. arbo har, mi go treat him eat~ eat at those restaurant.. swensen or fish&co. tat type.. kEkex.. but firstly, gotta pay ting-er tat $70 first.. coz of tat stupid spec.. zzz.. she ownself oso no $$ lerx.. poor she.. *siGhx* if mi gt $$ treat sam lerx, i cfm will ask her go oso.. she har, my sista sia.. i no fren tat time, she cfm on mi.. i no $$ tat time, she cfm lend mi.. but juz tat har, she like 2 lie 2 much lo.. which i reali hate it.. mi mama todae sae mi har, after mi go steady wid tis guy, i bcum till lidat.. i dunno whether she noe i change bf ler or wad.. but har, did i realli change ler ma..? i nv tell her mi change bf lerx.. i juz din inform her anithing.. she seems to noe everything sia.. zzz.. todae met yufen.. she sae i bian de more n more nu ren wei lerx.. haha!!! omg~!! realli mahx..? lOlx~ she sae i will nv wear tat kind of shirt.. nv bring tat kind of bag.. nv wear tat kind of bracelet (well, bracelet is sam gib de ma.. of coz will wear la.. lOlx~) nv wear tat kind of shoes.. OMG!! she sae mi till like i very cham lidat.. *sObx* den wed gonna go shopping wid her.. coz she wanna buy lady-like de clothes.. den mi oso ma.. hehex.. wear for bf c c.. kEkex.. she n jazky har, damn gd sia.. so loving.. haix.. mi n sam oso nt bad la.. hahax..=X aniwae ar, gotta go zzz lerx.. i miz him so much.. tried to slp juz nw.. den bo bian.. mi head was thinking how am i gonna spend the $$ wid/for him.. lOlx~

- money money money.. i juz love u money.. lOlx~ -